It’s almost been a week into my college career and I’m already numb. Today walking back from the bus stop just getting back from the odasis orientation I feel a heavy weight on my chest. I partied last night , it was “fun” but really it was probably just something I have to say was a good time because it fits in the social norms. I don’t like party with strangers . I wanna be surrounded with people I know and care about and not have to be under influences to loosen up. I am terrified for my future. And everytime I think about it, I can’t breathe and I cry. I need more time to myself, and in the open space. That is really the only way I will be able to get through this. I feel so alone.